I just realized something.
I knew God leading me to the desert would be a spiritual experience to behold. Many great men before me have gone into the desert and come out better for it. But these men are not sent to the desert without trials and temptations. They suffer in some way. Yet, all the while, they give thanks to God and find joy to shout His praises. Have I forgotten Who leads me so quickly? I've forgotten. I've failed miserably at withstanding temptations. I've fallen into sin, despair, and anguish, but of my own accord. I have been tried and found less than true. However, because of the sacrifice my Savior made for me, I am not doomed to be stuck here. I can be redeemed. I can be forgiven. I can get my heart back and it can be full again.
Satan has filled my head with lies. He lies when he says I am not loved. When he says I am alone. When he says that if I were to never exist, it wouldn't make a bit of difference to anyone. When he says to give in to whatever my body commands, to become my body's slave. When He says my God is a liar and fake and cannot save me. He lies!
Yahweh, save me. Open my eyes. Shield my heart. Hear my cries. Rescue me. Help me withstand temptation. Fill me with Your everlasting joy and unending love. Forgive me for what I've done and will do. Teach me what is right and how to march upon the path of righteousness. In my human frailty, I love You.
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I don't know of anyone who went to the desert and spent it praising God and thanking Him. (Except Jesus, but He's a walking exception).
ReplyDeleteMoses went furious with his people on many an occasion and smashed a rock with his staff (Numbers 20), Elijah asked God to kill him (1 Kings 19).
Jesus was tempted by the devil in the desert (Luke 4, googling the references and posting them in case you want to read them)
I know there's plenty more I've forgotten too. Loads of Christians in the desert find it a time of sin and despair and horror. From Prophets the givers of the Law to regular people.
But somehow God manages to make us more holy through it.
"I can be redeemed."
You don't need to be redeemed because it has already occured. You already are redeemed. You already are saved.
If you weren't, you wouldn't have been led into the desert.